Waiting for the undecided

tick tock. tick tock. tick tock.
that sound.
the wait.
the suspense.
the outcome.

greatest gift you can give.

we are all waiting for something...
the kettle to boil to make some tea after a stressful day of life.
your hot chips to to finish frying so you can enjoy their delectable goodness after craving.
the bus that's supposed to arrive so you won't be late for uni.

patience acts as a catalyst to achieve

 the endurance of waiting.

when i think of waiting,

i always cross reference it to patience.

patience is hard to measure,

but defined through their attitude.

at least i'd like to think so (:

HANG IN THERE. 

(even when it drives you insane)

And until then..

i'll be waiting,

because good things come 

to those who wait.

( optimism is hard )

katwinky.x.

Feeling of indifference

 I know I probably have been neglecting my blog for the longest time now, 
but that's probably cause I've been so preoccupied with a lot of things
whether it be uni, family, friends, relationships etc.

I guess I don't have that random urge of word vomiting anymore,
maybe due to the lack of inspiration or being more vocal about
anything and everything I notice. 

LIKE OH-EM-GEE PRINCE GEORGE WAS JUST BORN.

To be honest, I don't really know what's happening.
My mood has been quite negative lately.
My patience is practically depleted.
Easily irritated.
Feel the need to hermit up from the world.
Emotionally void.

To pinpoint these triggering source would be a hard find
cause I've been wondering for the past few weeks..
Hurts me more than you think you know.

I hate this feeling.
Not knowing where life is headed.
Feeling blamed for things out of my control.
Missing someone that's not there anymore.
Taken for granted.
BUT, that is life.

 I figured there are some things that give me temporary happiness
from my long day of nothing.

1) Getting the most randomest texts that make me smile.

I don't really receive text content like this
(but maybe I sometimes send stuff like this and spam people, SHUSH)
i love the feeling of someone having the 
urgency to tell you something and keeps you curious, 
then it makes you panic and realise it was nothing
really that urgent. 

2)  Enveloping yourself in your blanket in winter

 I literally look like I got wrapped up in a yummy dumpling
sealed completely shut and do not want to move in the risk
of exposure to external air coming to invade my warmth.

3. Someone willing to look like a fool to see you smile

HIDE YO KIDS. HIDE YO WIFE.

Normally I would be embarrassed,

but nowadays small gestures go a long way.

People that have the initiative to talk and plan to 

go out with you without you having to hint, love yous ~

4. Narrowing down a hobby to distract you

ideas so far..

 --> Another blog for DIY stuff and Budget Barbie type blog

(Spreading my asian tips and tricks to the world)

PRO: time consuming and getting them creative juices flowin'

CON: more prone to spend money

 

 --> Doing more cooking

PRO: i get to eat food, rather than instant noodles and frozen food.

CON: my mixer broke -.- no baking for a while

--> Photography

PRO: i have an alright digital camera

CON: have no idea where to start or where to take pictures

-->Recording songs

PRO: i get to improve my singing and technical skills

CON: can't sing or play instruments well

what do you guys reckon?

5. A really long hug that you never wanna let go of

 

Unexpected hugs make me so happy.

BUT, there's something about a kiss on the cheek (..makes me giddy)
It's sweet and gives me warm and fuzzy feelings..dang romcoms.
(i love chuck and blair, they're my favourite tv couple)

FOOD FOR THOUGHT..

Been watching a lot of grey's anatomy lately

katwinky.x.