HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Surprises either have the following effects:

the i-am-totally-shocked-i-think-i-just-peed-a-little surprise.

the oh-you're-just-trolling-me-revenge-is-around-the-corner surprise

the i-feel-as-though-i've-been-electrocuted-cause-it-came-out-of-nowhere surprise

THEN CAME MY SURPRISED LOOK.

the this-is-a-weird-coincidence-they're-here-still-don't-get-it-till-ten-minutes-later surprise

my mind lags,
but i'm forever grateful
that i'm blessed with such great friends :)
irreplaceable and priceless.



katwinky.x.

relationship deficit doesn't have to be an option

who said you gotta enter deficit 
when in a relationship ? 
i think the best things in life come free
as cheesy as that sounds.

the ones i would do:

1. Maybe not trees, maybe go on a playground adventure(?)

4. i don't know how that works but it would be different haha

6. i've always wanted to do this ! Building a tent either outside/inside

my house with a picnic and candles and watching our favourite

movie on my laptop while lying down shoving our face with goodies.

8. HECK YES ! Spontaneous adventure, love love love.

11. actually doing tourist things are quite fun 

when you haven't done it in a while :)

12. that would be beyond cute! wishful thinking D: 

13. dress up as your alter ego, that would be interesting ..

17. ORRR a photolog of an invisible couple :D

18. i love walking, it's really refreshing and romantic -blushes-

20.ORRR watch a korean drama and do that -enter generic storyline-

Babe,
you're the best boyfriend.
you give me things that i don't deserve
and much much much more.
my expectations of you go far beyond
what i'd see a person doing.
you make me understand what it means
to experience a sacrificial love.


although there are times that
we may falter due to disagreements
but we remember the memories we
shared are all priceless and irreplaceable.


we may like our eggs served differently,
we may have different views on finishing food,
we may get ready at different paces,
BUT as everyone says opposites attract ;)

despite our similarities,

despite our differences,

you are my better half.

happy threes babe.
i miss you.
i love you.


BLERGH..

i miss those types of hugs

that you give me.

i miss how you curl up when you sleep

and look like the cutest baby, my baby <3

katwinky.x.

Whole New World

recently, i met up with my uncle from new zealand.

he's a steward and has travelled all over the world,

experienced a vast array of cultures, it's amazingly unfair D:

so it got me thinking of how much i'm missing out on and to 

make it an aim in life to visit places that i've always wanted to :)

1) ITALY

THE AUTHENTIC HAND-MADE PASTA AND PIZZA.

THE RIDE THROUGH THE CITY ON A VESPA IN THE SUNSET CULTURE.

THE WHEN-THE-MOON-HITS-YOUR-EYE SERENADING ON GONDOLAS.

2) JAPAN

THE SUSHI MAKING, TEPPANYAKI FLIPPING FOOD.

THE WEIRD INNOVATIVE TECHNOLOGY THAT YOU NEVER GET.

THE ANIME LIKE FEEL WALKING THROUGH CHERRY BLOSSOMS.

3) FRANCE

THE EIFFEL TOWER OUTSIDE YOUR WINDOW.

THE ACCENT THOUGHT TO BE ADAPTED FROM SEBASTIAN(LITTLE MERMAID).

THE CITY OF ROMANCE  ENVELOPING YOUR BEING.

4) USA

THE FAMILIAR SCENERY FROM YOUR FAVOURITE MOVIES.

THE UNUSUALLY BIG PORTIONS OF FOOD.

THE CHANCE TO BUMP INTO AN A-LISTER.

5) ENGLAND

THE BLOODY BRILLIANT ACCENTS.

THE SOLDIERS WITH THE BIG TALL HATS STANDING EVER SO STILL.

THE CHANCE TO EXPERIENCE A PROPOSAL FROM A REAL PRINCE.

it would be amazing if i could visit..

life philosophy : hakuna matata

AFRICA.

one day..

one day..

it will be achieved :)

katwinky.x.

Kickin' it random

do you ever get those days where you wanna
just do whatever you're thinking of?

then realise a few minutes/hours/days/years later

REGRET. 

Having your own rave in public hoping your friends

would join you and do the same.

And realise they bailed and people in public 

look at you and go..

When you think of an awesome spontaneous adventure

that will blow your socks off.

And you realise your parents don't give you consent

and you flash em one of these and they just cave.

Feeling super photogenic and photo bombing every picture

with your elusive charms.

But when you see the photos uploaded on facebook

it turns out a little something like this..

SLIGHTLY, reminds me of Newton's third law.

" For every action, there is an equal and opposite re-action."

BUT, then again..

KEEP IN MIND.

katwinky.x.

Doubtful,very doubtful

Throughout the human race, 
there is a mutual feeling that we experience.

PARANOIA.

It is manifested from some deeply-rooted fear
of genuinely feeling that you will get screwed over.
( to be blunt )


The sudden fluctuation of emotion after
someone asks you if you're okay

we hide

..from our fears

..from arguments

..from pain

..from confrontation

..from loss

etc.

To live in fear from your paranoia will leave
you with regrets in life.. don't let em hold you back :)

don't pre-judge a person,
as they are probably going through their
own problems in life far beyond your comprehension.

how to protect your heart.

SHOULD never expect
                          never demand
                          never assume
KNOW     your limits
                        where to stand
                        your role
DON'T     get affected
                       get jealous
                       get paranoid

Just go with the flow and stay happy.

The feeling of being understood

and trying to keep it together 
for their sake cause you love them

katwinky.x.

We could happen

" There are times,

when i just want to look at your face

with the stars in the night

There are times when i just want to 

feel your embrace in the cold night.

I just can't believe that you are mine now.

You were just a dream that I once knew,

I never thought i would be right for you.

I just cant compare you with anything in this world,

you're all i need to be with forevermore. "

- David Archuleta

My favourite quotes in romantic movies

The Vow

Hmm, i can't wait for the day that i get married and we exchange our vows (wishful thinking) i wish i could probably articulate to the person i'm willing to spend the rest of my life with the overwhelming feelings they give me every time i see them or spend time with them, that every moment we shared had strengthened me into what i've always wanted to be.And that they make me, me and accepted me for flaws and all and with all the baggage i come with.And to know that no matter what obstacles we faced in the future, that I would be right by their side going through it with them. 

This line in the movie reminds me of that verse in the bible:

Love is patient, love is kind. 

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It does not dishonour others, it is not self-seeking,

it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrong.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 3:4-6

I can only hope when i encounter such a special thing like love,
that i will try to uphold all the characteristics that love possesses. 


My future hubby will be the unluckiest guy to set eyes on me, cause i will never let him out of my sight(poor guy). He will be mine forever and online mine >:] Patience holds a strong place in my heart cause my personality will test a lot of it.

..my paranoia

..my insecurities 

..my indecisiveness

..my random midnight cravings

..my hypocrisy 

..my emotional instability

My hearts been dropped a lot of times, 
i'm sorry its a little tattered.
do you think you can put it back together?

We forget the rarity that love possesses sometimes.
The feeling of giving someone you're heart and soul and everything you have in yourself.
Scary thing ain't it ? I hope one day i will be able to do that.. (:


Dear John

WAHH, love love love. It's that special moment that you share together 
that you can't even comprehend into words the feeling of being with that person 
gives you and being so close within their arms. It makes you feel that anything you
 set your mind to is possible, that nothing else matters but that moment you were in. 
It's like that feeling you get when you just slow dance in the middle of nowhere, 
playing music from the soundtrack of your favourite movie of all time that makes you just those tingling sensation of butterflies and that you wouldn't ever want that moment to end.


Letters to Juliet

BLERGH.
the things you never want to live with in life, regret.
i can't say anything better than the quote that you just read.
just, carpe diem.


I like you, BABE.

My idea of the perfect relationship ..


.. taking you home even if it meant you had to be physically dragged
.. taking 2 jackets to places cause you knew i'd be too stubborn to take yours
.. going into woolies to see what we would buy and compare
.. slow dancing even when there was no music
.. lying down on the grass watching the starry night sky
.. cuddles that you wouldn't ever want to let go of
.. motivating the other when there's something due the next day
.. willing to do anything for your happiness
.. making plans to go to ikea to pick out future furniture
.. taking care of you even if it meant their health was at stake
.. being comfy enough to know you can be the DJ when you're in the car
.. not being embarrassed cause we're just as weird as each other
.. already thinking of future baby names even if it was to do with constellations
.. respecting each others boundaries
.. plan road trips of spending the day together
.. being able to cook for them and seeing how appreciative they are

man, once i find a guy that that can do half of these things

i might just have to keep him forever :D

future hubby, be patient with me

and i hope it'll be worth the wait.

BUT when you do, it'll be AMAZING.


Leap of faith.
enough said.

LEGIT,

 things just got real xD

p.s i know i know, too much romantic movies.
what can i say? sucker for rom-coms.

katwinky.x.

Mother knows best

If you think i don't make sense sometimes,

you should meet my mother.

i still love her unconditionally.

i adore this movie :3

my mother's intuition is sometimes overshadowed 
by her severe lack of logic.


NORMAL VIEW ON MARRIAGE

HER VIEW ON WHO 
YOU SHOULD MARRY

caucasian??

'NO, never ever in a gagillion years. Over my dead body,

don't you consider how different our cultures are?!'

at least our babies would be adorable ><"

as if you wouldn't say yes if chace crawford proposed.

sub-continental asian??

' -intense glare- DISOWNED.'

don't be so dismissive to people mum, 

you don't know every person in that race. 

they're really nice :)

what the sexy smoulder. 

korean??

'i got told they're really violent, 

don't let that korean drama fool you.'

don't believe everything you hear T___T"

 minhos so tall and dreamy O____O

japanese??

'they're respectful, 

but they keep everything bottled up 

and one day BOOM!!'

i actually have no idea where she gets these assumptions..

ash, i'd choose you any day ;D

so what race does she approve of?

 " i'm not that particular, i'm not picky at all :) hmm .. some race which is similar to

our race so you won't have much of a cultural difference. go find a tropical asian husband,

not phils though! think more malaysian, singapore, indonesian kinda tropical."

my mum is clearly, sorta slightly racist.
but i guess she wants the best for her baby girl xD
oh well what you gonna do,
she's bound to be broken from her conservative
thinking one day.
meanwhile, gotta get me some tropical hubby 
HAHAHAHA, i kid.






katwinky.x.

Undeserving kindness

Today was one of the worst days i've had for a while.

Accusations.

Sleep deprivation.

Emotional roller coaster.

Hobo aesthetics.

Void of proper food.

but in despite of it all, 
hardships are put forward to be overcome.

..through god's help.

..through friend's help.

..through family's help.

we can always argue that we are happy in how
we are only dependent on ourselves and the only
people to blame for our problems would be ourselves.
in reality, all people break down at one stage of their
life or another and it's through the help of others is what gets us through.


ADVICE FOR MYSELF:

Accept the fact you need people's help, 

no matter how insanely stubborn you are.

you are amazing, my life would be so much harder without you.
honestly, there's never a dull moment with you.
we make the little moments in life memorable in some
way or another.
our friendship has stood the test of time i reckon.
we've been through the whole nine yards and back.
(yes, i put in yards since you're american and all)

thank you for always being there for me.

thank you for befriending such a weirdo like me.

thank you for our time spent chatting away at san churros.

thank you for your support.

thank you for caring excessively.

thank you for being my best friend.

sorry i sometimes make no sense, 

but you somehow still understand what i meant to say.

you're such a trooper, putting up with me so much 
for such a short amount of time.
i apologise for the inconvenience.
it feels like i found my long lost twin, 
but i'm the older one since you always copy me x)
you've seen me at my craziest, my 'normalness' and my worst.
..lucky you -insert sarcasm- :)

thank you for wasting so much time on me.

thank you for wasting a gagillion litres worth of petrol

trying to navigate with an incompetent GPS. (optimus prime ftw)

thank you for your wisdom in times when i needed guidance.

thank you for genuinely making me smile even if it was for a moment.

sorry for all my the times i said 'sorry' and i will be sure to make it up

to you one day!

" You have saved our lives we are eternally grateful :D"
 - green aliens from toy story.




I came across a verse that really encouraged me.


Romans 5:2-5 Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.





i guess i ended up going on a spontaneous adventure after all :)


katwinky.x.

Who's that girl?

THIS CAPTURES ME TO A TEA.

i'm a small child stuck 

in a tall person's body.

i like bubbles.

i like shiny things.

i like fat things.

i like fluffy things.

i like playgrounds.

i sound similar to a fish aye?

i'm passionate over my food.

don't mess with my food

if you want to stay alive.

i'm a sleeping machine.

i can sleep on the bus.

i can sleep in the middle of the day.

i can sleep during class.

my identifier.

i'm a public embarrassment.

i sing and dance in public.

i shout out things to embarrass my friends.

when i run out of nutella

during exam time.

chocolate de-stresses me :(

when i spot a hot guy

...the moment when i 

actually talk to him

when somebody from your own race 

speaks to you and you don't understand 

what they're saying.

awkward.

Singing expresses my randomness.

i may not be in tune.

or know all of the lyrics.

or can dance.

BUT i'll fake it till i make it.

my friends are currently deleting me 

as a friend on facebook as we speak.

forever alone.

katwinky.x.