Phobia freak

 i'm officially a man.

you know why? huh? do you?

i got my very first blood test today :D

not like a "i can bench press you like i'm on steroids" type of manly,

 but STILL pretty manly 

i got forced to go to the doctors today,

cause recently i've had nose bleeds during trials.

i reckon it's just stress, but being the paranoid family

i love they thought it was something serious like..

my lung was ruptured D:

BUT, just turns out it's cause of stress :)

the doctor said i needed to get a blood test, just to 

see whether i'm anaemic or not.

i have a phobia of needles, aichmophobia. 

you know what i just realised? i'm a phobia freak.

dw ron, i don't like spiders either :)

Elurophobia

fear of cats

Agliophobia

fear of pain

Glossophobia

fear of speaking in public

Hemophobia

fear of blood

Kakorrhaphiophobia

fear of failure

Ornithophobia

fear of birds

i have phobiophobia (fear of having phobias xD)

extent of my phobias may vary :)

song of my mind:

James Morrison - Please don't stop the rain

You see life is a crazy thing

There'll be good times and there'll be bad times

and everything in between

And i don't know which way it's gonna go

If it's gonna be a rainy day,

there's nothing we can do to make it change.

We can pray for sunny weather,

but that won't stop the rain.

katwinky.x.

Mind rape

mind rape.

Tempted to try it at this point D:

 i've picked up some really weird habits during trial weeks.

I feel like a pregnant person, without the bearing a child part.

BUT THE MANNERISMS ARE DEAD ON.

#1 when i'm craving food , i NEED to have it.

krispy kreme - i had the biggest krispy kreme craving ever ~

and as exams come my way, i stress eat.. A LOT.

i purposely trekked to the city(which is far as) to buy

24 plainly glazed donuts, talk about binge eating.

don't worry i shared with the fam, sharing is caring :D

Doesn't this just make you salivate?!

chocolate chip pancakes - i've never had them till a few days ago,
but as soon as my cousin suggested it..i HAD to have it D:
so after dinner we made a whole batch of em.
chocolate chip pancakes with segmented strawberries and oranges,
what the scrumptious meal.

omnomnomnom :3

#2 since exam started, i've had a loss of appetite
instead of wanting to demolish my pantry's abundant supply of food,
my appetite has slowly dwindled ):
i'm too stressed to eat.. i don't deserve food till i finish exams >:[


#3 i'm getting sick way too often
today i was in my english exam and out of nowhere
BOOM, nose bleed.
before that my hand started trembling, but then that's
kinda a normal thing for exams isn't it?
i loss a lot of blood i swear, cause i got light-headed after
and 20mins after my english exam , i had a 3hour business exam.

major GG.

#4 my sleeping pattern is screwed in the head

i haven't had a decent sleep in ages ..

sleepless nights go unnoticed, while i'm lost 

in my thoughts and fears.

c'mon brain, let me get a chance to sleep !

#5 my concentration span is relatively forced

staying up till the early mornings of the next day

doesn't really help me, but since i can't sleep

might as well make it as productive as possible right?

captures me to a tea.

#6 talking to people seems so much more of an effort

normally, i'm the type of person who ceases to stop talking.

people that know me well enough can vouch for that :)

seriously i don't get annoyed by people that easily,

BUT today there was a fitness first guy handing out vouchers

and he was asking me to take one.

i slightly got offended and replied..

" ARE YOU INSINUATING SOMETHING?!"

..i felt so mean, poor guy ><

#7 feels the need for a motivational speech

after today's incident, i don't feel like talking to people anymore.

so if i don't reply you, don't take it personally.

i'm just simply not in the mood to talk to people.

i don't wanna rage on anyone, just in case steer clear of me till after exams.

#8 doodle queen, i can't stop drawing.

when i have nothing to do, i just pick up a pen and draw.

doesn't even necessarily make sense, think its more

a metaphorical visual representation of what i'm thinking about.

i wish my scribbles were this good ):

instead of seeing this...

this is what i actually see...

.............™

helpful tip:

katwinky.x.

The "X" man

Ladies, introducing the one and only ..

mario maurer.

my dream man.

carries the blood of thai , chinese and german.

well since i always write these blog posts in my perspective,
i thought it'd be good for my blog to get a guy's perspective :)
my guy friend volunteered , his names is daum.
pronounced kinda like "DAYUMM"
direct quotes so it may sound a bit disjointed :P


what's the criteria of your dream girl?

Appearance
- Medium hair the ones which go to around the neck
- A girl with glasses is quite alright :] ..makes them look smart but also cute
- A girl who has a good smile ..and who :) more than :(
- I don't like blunt noses though, not too pointy either
- Her eyes shouldn't be wide apart, nor too close
- Eyebrows should be decent, not too much and not too less like mona lisa
- Her overall face shouldn't be too big.. otherwise it'd be too hard to hold
- Shape of the body shouldn't be massive, nor too skinny
- A girl who dresses well

" The most important part of a girl is their hands

..then the lips"

Personality
- Outgoing and active
- Person you can have fun with, not those girl who are quiet and sensitive to everything
- Who can take a joke, but also who is responsible
- Has a goal of what she wants to do
- Idm if she likes to play instruments, if it was an instrument it'd be really nice if she could play the violin
- It would be nice if she could dance as well

" Overall a girl who is outgoing and 

who would do the right thing

eg. not drinking too much, or do random sheep "

what's the most romantic thing you would do for a girl?

Daum: Rent an island and spend a week with her

Me: ..something more realistic daum..

Daum: </3 okay ..

I dunno if you'd consider this as romantic 

but probably take her to a special place that i have .. aha nothing shifty

its this rock which has a view of darling habour

and i'd take her at night with my guitar

and i'd probably learn her favourite song and play it to her.

Me: any more detail you wanna add?

Daum: hmm well if its at night, the trains probably gonna be shut

sooo, probably just have a little camp fire thing going on

because the place you can make fire

Me: isn't it illegal to have a campfire ..?

Daum: well then just crap loads of blankets and a lamp

wait this would probably in summer

soo just a blanket or two and yeah just spend the night talking

and looking at the sky hoping for a shooting star to pass by

and see darling harbour light up, which is pretty damn nice.

how would you hit on a girl you just met?

well I wouldn't really hit on her, I'd want to get to know her better

soo more like I'd flirt with her by being myself really.

"U from sweden? cause ur very swedish"

nothing like a lame joke to break the ice

id probably start off by not introducing myself, to get that sense of mystery.

what girl habits do you find annoying?

- Girls who complain about anything and everything

- Girls who are obsessed in buying

- Girls who put tonnes of make up .. i like all natural

" I like it when when girls have the habit where they touch their lips"

- I hate girls when they put every energy on their tongue and pulls it out..unless it's really cute

- Girls who play with their hair.. as in girls who roll it and braid it JUST LEAVE IT ALONE

what do you find cute/hot in girls?

- When girls try and do something but fail, cause then you can help them

- When they smile

- A girl who likes to get piggybacked

- A girl who has nice eyes

- Good body

- Nice arms and legs, smooth ones

- Good overall tan

- Girls who don't have tattoos 

" what's nice is when they wear short pants .."

katwinky.x.

Harry Potter Generation

my brain has turned to smush after my first english trials 

exam raped my brain with 11 pages worth of words ..

images coming you're way :)

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that awkward moment when voldemort hugs you..

Hooking up in the chamber of secrets 

because you just killed a horcrux..

Fighting Voldemort in a cardigan like a boss ..

The Youngins..

 

Ready to be mindblown ?

never seen the similarities aye?

My newly found lover..

 78823974032 x points to Griffindoor 

..matt lewis, puberty agrees with you.

katwinky.x.

Never said it was easy

Stop it.

Enough is Enough.

Don't you think you've messed with me enough?

Genuine forgiveness does not 

deny anger but faces it head on.

You know who you are,

..you've let me down.

..you've left me.

..you've lied to my face.

..you've made it harder for me to trust people again.

..you've torn me down.

..you've made me carry all this pain.

..you've manipulated people.

..you have hidden agendas.

..you're a hypocrite.

..you always find some way to make my life miserable.

..you've disappointed me.

Just stop.

I don't think I can take any more.

You've caused enough trouble.

Just leave me alone.

We're never so vulnerable than when we trust someone,

but paradoxically, if we cannot trust, neither can we find joy.

It is much, much worse to receive bad news through the written word than by somebody simply telling you, and I'm sure you understand why. When somebody simply tells you bad news, you hear it once, and that's the end of it. But when bad news is written down, whether in a letter or a newspaper or on your arm in felt tip pen,each time you read it. 

You feel as if you are receiving the news again and again.

you know what you did.

go grow a pair.

"True friendship is a plant of slow growth,

and must undergo and withstand the shocks of

adversity before it is entitled appellation."

- George Washington

P.S.  Don't meddle in something that isn't your business.

katwinky.x.

Risk it all?

Life is a risk in itself.

we take risks everyday.

risks that i observed from other people

should i buy a train ticket ..?

should i go tell my mum i need to go

bathroom before i catch the bus ..?

should i wing it without a map ..?

which zone do you stand in..?

if you think about it ..

would you rather live a life with 

"OH NO" moments

or

live a life with

"OMGOMG I can't believe i just did that" moments

Life without risk, is it worth living?

- Just go crazy

skydive, bungee jump, climb mt. everest

- Get into a relationship

loved unconditionally, to be on someone's mind 24/7

- Do what you love

dream, wonder, create, achieve

cause all i can suggest is ..

stop being scared.

stop swallowing your words.

stop caring what other people think.

wear what you want.

say what you want.

listen to whatever music you want.

play it loud as heck.

dance to it like a spaz child.

stop waiting for friday.

Live now.

Do it now.

this life is yours.

katwinky.x

Trade secrets

do you want all the girls to fall head over heels for you? this is the blog post for you :D

i'll try my best to help you guys out,
not only for your benefit,
but the world could do with more chivalrous men.
so it's a winwin situation right ? ^^


to decipher whether you're chivalrous or not, answering the following:

If you went on an outing and a girl says she's gonna go walk home

and at the time, it was raining, dark and late would you..

a) Wave goodbye
b) Ignore her
c) Offer to walk her home
d) Leg it for the train/bus

*answer at bottom of page

Some things you need to know before we get started..

1.Girls already have certain expectations when they look for a guy. It's built in their head from rom-com movies, dramas etc.  So bring your A-game in the romantic department boys. 

even though they don't expect these "drama" moments

 to occur in real life, secretly inside they're waiting 

for the right guy to make it come true for em.

titanic , ngaww .

2. Lame pick up lines don't do you any favours. It just makes you seem sleazy and desperate. Just be yourself ( i know that phrase is totally cliche, but it's true)

no, just no.

3. Insulting us ain't gonna make us fall for you. I mean there is an extent and a boundary for that and if you cross the no-go zone, man you will be like on their hit list.

we ain't gonna stand for yo crap :P

4. We don't like being lied to.

we are fragile creatures.

There are two possibilities..


To be a good boyfriend:

Boys become men when they 

1. follow you when you walk out

2. call you back when you hang up

3. hug you when you punch him

4. kiss you when you nag

5. watch chick-flicks with you

6. tolerate your crying over love stories

7. hand you the remote control

8. pass on booze night just to listen to your rantings

9. don't flare up when you give car directions

10. says "i'm sorry" and tells you he needs you

11. notice the little things makes her realise you pay attention

12. ask for her opinion to know she's valued

13. text her "how's your day?" to let her know you're

thinking about her throughout the day

14. never leave her when she pushes you away

15. being yourself and genuinely care for them

To be a good guy best friend:

The Best G-biffle

1. Be with her when she needs you

2. Don't take "i'm fine.." as an excuse to stop talking to her

3. Walk her home when it's late

4. Loyal and be able to keep her secrets

5. Check up on her once in a while

6. Offer her your jacket when she's cold/offer umbrella when raining

7. Doing the best you can to help her

8. Someone who knows to be on your side

9. Someone who's mature and you can rely on them for advice

10. Letting her know she can herself when she's with you aka PIG OUT

this is definitely me xD

* Answer: C (statistics show answers are most likely C)

katwinky.x.