bruises all over

i despise bruises .
..they swell,
...they make you feel pain ,
....keeps you from doing what you normally do properly.
PAIN IS SOMETHING MOST PEOPLE AVOID .
most people classify me as "clumsy"
what they accumulate to get to that conclusion, i do not know .

Recently, i went ice skating .
recently i mean yesterday
i gotta say i expected too much out of myself
i stacked it so many times .

the outcome from this experience ?
- my whole knee covered in bruises
colours varying from purple to pink to a dark grey.
-scratches on my forearm
- epic headache
→LEARNT I SHOULD BE MORE CAREFUL .

isnt that what the normal outcome of getting hurt is ? learning to be more careful next time ? Somehow we are always ignorant to those experiences and carry on like this.

well pain can be determined as being suffered
both EXTERNALLY and INTERNALLY .



THOSE COMFORTING EXTERNAL SUFFERING
" OHEMGEE , ARE YOU OKAY ?! -helps you up- "

COMFORTING INTERNAL SUFFERING
" umm its okay, keep your head up "

why is internal comforting much harder to recover from that external suffering? its not fair.

and just some bruises .. that can just never heal. Although we may supress them they resurface sooner or later.

its not a thing that can be fixed by certain words
or any slight gestures, although it makes us forget for a few moments
it doesnt let us forget that pain that lingers within us.

it chases after us , haunts our being .
no ONE person can understand you fully ,
yes you can get people who understand parts of what
you go through and certain circumstances , but noone
can ever understand yourself fully as much as you understand yourself.

i wish there was, but thats pretty unrealistic.

i miss how my life once was, COME BACK TO MEEE PLEASE :(

we always yearn for that moment where
we get out of this rut we're suffering from .
believing that cliche line ..
" there is light at the end of the tunnel"
i think the only time where i feel safe from pain
is in my dreams , its where everything roams free
and its up to you to make what you want come alive :)


hehe cuteness :3

ill leave you with something to think about.
i heard this saying before ..
you could be surrounded by a sea of people, but never feel like you belong.


katwinky.x.