once upon a fairytale

helpful insight to women.

i know a story of this girl who couldn't stop hurting inside
traumatic experiences maybe ? .. who knows.
well this is her story.


she always lived life with a guarded wall in front of her
because she was scared of what would happen when someone
would one day tear that wall down.
well, that day came when a boy stepped into her life.
he treated her with so much respect and guidance that her wall
started to crumble.. she started to smile again.
NOT those fake smiles that she always seemed to put on for show,
but to really smile, a genuine emotion.


BUT, she started to take him for granted,
which in turn made her lose him.
she somehow already saw this coming, but she 
still couldn't do anything to change it.
sleepless nights came her way, filled with tearful moments. 
she thought to herself 

" so this is how it feels .. to lose something that meant so much to you."

she decided to take a walk outside 
to calm her mind, and make sense of what had happened.
a police approached her asking if she was alright.
she wanted to just break out and just say 

"no, everything is not alright. i can't take feeling this way ..cause it's hurting so bad."

but who was she to do this to a stranger.
instead she said she was fine and the police drove off.


the only thing she could do to forget about him
was if he could tell her that he hated her and never wanted to talk to her again.
so she could get inside her head, that she wasn't wanted anymore.
she heard in his voice how hard it was for him to say,
to let go of someone so dear to her was the hardest part.
she just decided the best thing for her was to figure out things for herself,
to let go of him completely would be impossible.
she cared so much, she knew she had to let go.


the boy once mentioned that his mum told him not to ever make a girl cry.
BUT, the girl just wanted to say that the tears she shed wasn't cause 
of the boy hurting her in any way.
It was because she realised how wrong she has been to treat someone so good
to her like that, she realised what she had lost.


even though they part their own ways for now..
they know that their friendship can hold on.
she did promise him that she would always be there for him,
she still stands by her promise.
but for now as she still hurts , she must pretend to be alright.
for his sake.


what happens to her now ?
well , her wall that once opened up to him.
slowly, starts to builds up.


all she needs at this moment is one of those..
i-will-hug-it-out-till-you-feel-better  kinda hugs.

gotta love cartoons :)

Taylor Swift

To me fearless is not the absence of fear.

It's not being completely unafraid.

To me, fearless is having fears.

Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them.

To me, fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.

Fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again..even though every time you've tried before, you've lost it.

It's fearless to have that that someday things will change.

Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them.

Then, moving on and being alright.. That's fearless too.

But no matter what it throws are you, you have to believe it.

Hope you enjoyed my weird short story :) ~!


katwinky.x.